Not a good day

Well I really debated on writing on here what I was feeling today but you know what, this is my blog and I want to write whatever it is that is going on in my life. I know that I mostly use this blog to keep people updated on my families happenings and of course to post pics of my kids for all the family to see but today that is not what its about.

As most of you know Scott is deployed right now to Afghanistan right now. Its been a rough start to this deployment to say the least. We have had a number of techs get hurt or killed since he got there. And up until now we have been lucky enough to say that they were not people from our unit. We did have a couple good friends get injured that we knew from school but they were ok and recovering. A couple days ago I found out that a guy in our unit was badly injured from a land mine that he set his hand on. He is being flown to Germany to recover for a few weeks and stablize and then will be headed back to Ft Carson for extensive surgeries to repair the damage that has been done. This was a big shock to us. Our last deployment we were lucky enough to not have anyone seriously injured or killed. Knowing this guy and knowing who he was and having spent time with him just made this very real. I was pretty upset about it but I knew how lucky he was to make it out and be ok. Well this morning I found out that one of the Techs in our unit was killed yesterday. The circumstances have to do with his vehicle getting hit and he did not survive the explosion, and neither did 4 other guys that were with him. The other four were not people we knew, But this man was. He had a wife. He has kids...one which is only a few months younger than Bray. Scott was a paulbearer for him. He helped to put his friend, brother, fellow soldier on a plane in a coffin. This was undoubltly one of the hardest experiences of his life. Not only does my heart go out to my husband and all that he has had to see in just the last few days but my heart goes out to their families. That poor wife that has had her world come to a grinding halt. I am at a very hard place at the moment and I don't know what emotions I am feeling. This has been a very hard time for me and for the other women here that are my friends. It very quickly makes you re evaluate your life and the things that are going on in it. I think back to the wasted moments with my husband. The pety fights, and the lost kisses. I wish I had him home with me right now so that I could show him exactly what he means to me. In one very short month we have already had one soldier seriously hurt, and another killed. In a unit with only 40 guys thats a very big hit. I am not sure what to make of this or where to go from this. I dont know if this is a forshadow of what I have to look forward to this deployment or if it was just a bad week. I guess you wont know and either way it doesn't change anything. He is there, and he is fighting. He is putting others before him and doing his job because he believes that he is making a difference. He told me today that we have to be strong and just know that we are doing something good. I can't believe his overwhelming desire to serve and do good. Im sure this is all coming out as one big jumble but I wanted to get my thoughts out there. I wanted anyone that reads this to know that this war is still raging and people are losing their lives every day. The death toll spiked this last month and I fear its going to keep rising. Please pray for the troops, pray for their families. Pray for all those that can't sleep in a warm bed tonight because you can. Don't forget. And tell those around you that you love them. Let the little things go and focus on whats important. Know that every minute you have may be the last so make it count.